I've never been this hurt..

i thought it was him i waited so for long to fix my broken hart

but he disappoint me, like everyone else...

I gave him everything just show him how much i love him

 I gave him my time, my love, my care, but he never treasure it..

for him i am just nothing..

Again, my heart is broken, he just broke it without telling me why?

it takes me five yrs. to forget my first love...

  dont tell me it would also take me five yrs to forget him?

  i dont think so, because i know deep inside i did my part..

i just hope and pray that i can forget him and let him go in a short span of time..

so that my time will not be waste for nothing..

-- lonelyhart--

Nag mahal ako.. sa murang edad ko noon natuto akong mag mahal ng dahil sayo..ni hindi ko nga alam kung anu ang mangyayari pero sumugal ako, minahal kita higit pa sasarili ko...pero anong ginawa mo?..sinaktan mulang ako...anu ba ang akala mu sa akin? hindi nasasaktan?oo..matapang ako pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun diba na hindi ako nasasaktan...

akala ko ikaw na..akala ko magiging masaya ako sa piling mo..akala ko hindi ako iiyak dahil alam kong mahal mo ako..pero hindi eh...pinaniwala mulang ako..pinaasa...sayang ibinigay ko pa naman lahat ng tiwala ko sayo..hindi mo yun inalagaan...pinabayaan mulang...pinag katiwalaan kita sa lahat ng bagay...pero wla rin pala yung kwenta...dahil hindi mu ito pinapahalagahan..

sana masaya ka ngayon sa piling nya..sana alagaan ka niya gaya ng ginawa ko..sana mahalin karin nya higit pa sa pag mamahal ko sayo...ang hiling ko lang, mahalin mo cya..wag mu cyang sasaktan gaya ng ginawa mu sa akin...dahil ang sakit..baka hindi nya makayanan...maawa ka naman sa mga babaeng pina paiyak mo...wag mu sana cyang itulad sa ibah...kasi alam ko mahal ka niya...

masyado ka nyang mahal para isugal ang pagkakaibigan namin...mahal ka nya dahil kahit alam nyang masasaktan ako...hindi nya pinigilan ang sarili nya...kahit ako yung kapalit..mas mahal ka pa nya kaysa sa akin, kaya sana lang alagaan mo sya...please..!!!!!oo, nasasaktan ako pero masasaan ba't makaka limutan din kita...oo, iiyak ako pero cguro naman karapatan ko yun diba...

sana nga lang maging madali para sa akin ang kalimutan kah..siguro naman ngayon meron na akong sapat na dahilan para kalimutan kah....mahal kah ng kaibigan ko at mahal mo cya..talo nga ako...wla na akong laban..!!!!!!!!!

batid ko ang kaligayahan nyong dalawa..sana maging masaya kayo....:]

"dance of life"

when we truly love someone we give our best and let that person see the pureness of our intention but sometimes, that person make us cry and hurt us for the wrong reason...

that someone must have loved us, but he has not loved us enough to make him stand for what he truly felt...

Now we are faced with a seemingly impossible task...of forgetting..

we have burdened ourselves long enough, but we still can't get out of this emotional trap...

let us remember that the more we try to forget someone we love, the more painful letting go will become...

sometimes we never have to take that person out of our hearts at all...for he will always be there...no matter how hard we try to drive him away...

it isn't his presence that makes this difficult...it is our stubbornness to accept our destiny..

that aligns forgetting next to impossible...we keep a cold face, but deep in our hearts...there's still that  lingering hope for a reconciliaaion...

somehow we still believe that we can rekindle small embers and relight that fire that once burned in our hearts...

these thought give us hope...but it also breeds the seeds of loneliness and despair...the only way to forget is to accept, and the only way to move on is to look ahead...and let the foot prints of the past be blown by the wind of time...

only then..can our hearts find a partner in a dance of life...

and hopefully never lost again...

my dream vacation

  

i always dream to go in pagudpud...marami na akong naririnig tungkol dito at gusto kung maka punta para malaman ko kung maganda ba talaga ang pagudpud..kasama ang pamilya at mga kaibigan...ang saya nun...

gusto ko mka kita ng white sand..yung wla masyadong tao...gusto ko tahimik ang lugar para mka pag munimuni...tapos madami ang pagkain puro masasarap...

pagkatapos nun gusto kung ma upo sa tabing dagat at pagmasdan ang pag lubog ng araw..hahaist wen pa kaya mangyayari yun...ang sarap mangarap...

at ang pinaka gusto ko sa lahat...ang maka punta sa isang flower farm...ewan ko bah..basta gustong gusto ko mka kita ng mga bulak-lak...sana may isang tao na mag dadala sa akin sa mga lugar na gusto ko...pag nangyari yun..ako na siguro ang pinaka masayng tao sa boung mundo...

You told me once …

It’s crazy to sacrifice and dedicate yourself

For someone...but you did that to me.

Thank you and sorry…

Sometimes, it’s hard to let go of someone you love, but you have to.

Yah its painful... but what can you do, when it really doesn’t work.??

Moving on will take a long time..

 

Cause I believe

In the law happiness can’t be destroyed

Your hands do not have to be held tightly by me..

Like the stars

There’s always a reason to smile

And I believe you need to be cherished

And for me to let go ....

I hate my dad for letting me believed in fairy tales,

 happy ending and for reading me boooks about how they lived happily ever after..

i remember when i was a child he always told me 

"darling, someday your prince will come and offer you pure love and you will lived happily ever after."

 oh how was that? 

well at this point of mah life I don't want to believe in that stuff again..

Now i ask mah self...ilang palaka pa kaya ang ang kailangan kong halikan para makita at makilala ang prinsipe ko?...hanggang kailan pa kaya ako matutulog bago dumating ang prinsipe na hahahlik sa akin?...at malalaman kaya ng prinsipe na sa akin ang glass slipper na yun?

well i think it really takes time...to find Mr.prince...who knows?