nothing

i miss da old me who loves you...

i dont know is it me? or it is just you?

kahit ilang ulit kung e tanung sa sarili ko...

hindi ko rin naman alam ang sagot eh..nakakainis nga..

this man makes my life complete..:)

love you poh..

i never felt this love before,
the first time i saw you i knew that you are the one.

even though sometimes we fight but i know deep inside that it will be okay, i just want to tell you how much thankful i am that you came into my life..:)

you make my colorless life into colorful one..

this is just an hour ago..we fight because you want to go to parkmall but i want to go to sm...but you end uo in our house..ahahah

in short spam of time... i just prove that if i want to change i can change...
i force myself to change so that i cant be hurt again by the people around me..
like what my favorite song it says..leaving yesterday behind..and now im proud to say that im doing it..i may not good at it....but i know sooner or later i can master it...

thank you!! because you are one of the reason..:)

the fairy tale has ended and i have to wake up and face the reality...

yeah...it ended...sakit man huna2x.on, sakit man paminawon...pero thats it...diri jud cguro taman...cguro i have to adopt to the changes that is happening..

di lng jud cguro mag sink in sa ako.a nga in ana..yeah cguro ako rae nag huna2x pero..in ani man gud ako principyo...sori kung dli nko madawat..or basin dli lng jud ko ganahan sa inyong partner..i dont know...para NAKO man gud..kung BARKADA...BARKADA...wae unay..masagolan naman gud ug malisya...nya malisyoso bya ko pag katao...

»»»nya kung mkig friend mkig friend...dli tungod kae friend mi sa imung uyab mkig amiga sad kah nko..nya kung mag away mi..di ka managad...loslos nimu...loser kae kah...!!
abi nag kakamu naman gud..mao dli nko nimu kahinanglan...ahaha..well d sad tka kahinanglan..abi nko duha na akong ma kuya...wa sad diay kae kwenta...grow up oi..tiguwang nka...e fit imung lihok sa imung edad..

»»nya unsa man permi ka mu ana nga "nganu high blood man ka chuckie?"
ang2x managad rman kah kung wala imung uyab..kung naa imung uyab mura kog wa ni exist..mura tag dli kaila...loslos..kahibaw kah unsa kah ka importante nko...pero pareha sa ilang g.ingon...MIGA RA BYA KO!!!...kinsa gud ko...wa koe ryt mag buot...ahahah..AYAW KA BALAKA KAE NAG MATA AKONG DUHA KA MATA!!!

»»para ninyong duha...lge wa moe g.sulti..wala moe reaction.wala mu ni confront nko..pero kahibaw ko..ako inyong g.basol nganung nag ka buwag2x tah..ug nganung na guba atoh friendship..ug kung nganung na in ani..kasabot man ko bah..pero sabta sad tawn ko...di ko ganahan nga in ani..lain kae sa paminaw gud na feeling nimu na ikaw ang hinungdan sa tanan..ae ako ra diay ni buwag...completo namu...SO BE HAPPY..DONT WORRY ABOUT ME...I WILL BE OK...

»»Sa gika ingon pa nko..kung asa ka malipay adto kah..malipay nalang pud ko...dont tell me about detachment kae in the first place ikaw ang unang ni detach...
kahibaw ko its all started sa Christmas party...kae nganu? feeling nimu dka importante nko? ddto nag sugod tanan..hantod na sundan ug daghan pang away...hantod nka ana ko..kapoya oi..tanan nlang nko buhaton saup..den kae wla naman ko permi sa imung kilid here goes ur night and shinning armor..mao dra ka nka feel nga importante kae kah nya.. na murag d cya ma buhi kung wa kah..dvah mao mana imung gusto na importante kae kah sa usa ka tao..."DLI BYA KO IMPORTANTI NIMU".."DAGHAN BYA CLA"
:( CGURO DIS IS IT...DA MOMENT I CUT MY HAIR..the moment i let u go..be happy with..i know u are...:)...

»»nya happy nka? hala pag pa pista..daog nka oh...pildi nko..na ilog na nimu tanan nko..
hala panawag ug mga tao kae mag pa party kah...ganahan ka akoe mu organize?lol
I keep asking myself..nganung akong g.tugot na mu abot ka sa amung groupo..sukad ni abot ka..ikawe ang nag dala sa tanan gubot..happy naman tah mi oi na wla kah..tsk.tsk.tsk
if i can turn back tym..i will never let you come into our lives..ahaha may gle dli nko ma balik..:(


I WISH YOU ALL HAPINESS...I WILL NOT BE BITTER ANYMORE...PROMISE

I WILL MOVE ON..AND THINK NA DAMGO RA TOH TANAN...:)

IT WILL REMAIIN A HISTORY..A FAIRY TALE...

ITS SOOOO GOOD TO BE TRUE...:)

hear me say SORRY..:(


THANK YOU...GOODBYE...

waiting a jeepny is like waiting the person you love...


you wait in the jeepny stop knowing that it would stop there..but suddenly you realize marami kayong nag hihintay kaya..umalis ka at humanap ng ibang jeepny stop, ang saya mo kasi wla masyadong tao kaya may problema...wla jeep na duma.an...


kaya nanatili kang nka tayo at naghihintay sa wla..re rerouting diay toh..ahaha

Sana madali ang pag move on...para lahat ng taong nasasaktan, kaya mu ng sabihan na mag MOVE ON kana...pero hindi eh...maraming kailangan gawin para maka MOVE ON ang isang tao...kailangan mong masaktan ang sarili mo pa ulit-ulit para mapadali sayo ang pag MOVE ON...


Sabi nga sa librong na basa ko "cheer up, life doesn't end up with one heartache...So kung ganon ilang ulit mo pang kailangan masaktan? kung nasaktan kana ba ng todo-todo makaka-MOVE ON kana ba?Pero bakit ako nasaktan na ng sobra ang sarili ko pero, heto parin ako....nag mamahal ng isang busy-busyhan na gago.

kailan kaya ako magigising sa katotohanan na...wala siyang oras sa akin....Na isa lang akong pampalipas oras...

My friend always told me "You have to understand"...lintik na understand2x na yan...hanggang kailan ko cya kailangan intindihin? hanggang ako mag titiis?


isa lang naman yung hiling ko...na sana...sana lng ako naman....ako naman ang intindihin nya...
na kailangan ko din ang oras nya at sana magkaroon cya ng oras para mahalin ako...at oras para ako naman ang isipin nya...=(

my head rest on my pillow,
I let tears flow and ask myself...

why cant i let you go?

i know i have said goodbye so many times before..
but all roads lead me back to you.

but now, as i say this goodbye,
i have this feeling that i will never see you again.

honestly, i don't wanna cross your path in the future,
coz i don't want all these feeling to come back and hurt me once again...

i know i cant let go of my feelings,
but i have to let you go..

sorry if it took me this long
to let you go...

i still love you,
and i probably will love you for a very long time

but somehow i know,
i have to move on..and get over you..
And the only way for me to do that,
is to be not around you anymore......

like what they say, we cant forget someone we loved,
we may want to but we cant...

love cannot be forgotten, no matter how hard we try,
and how much we think it will ease the pain....
it will be there forever...

maybe fate will smile upon us, and will see each other again..
SOMEDAY...

A Tear,

For falling for you

For expecting too much

For thinking there was a chance

we would be more than just friends
.

A Tear,

For allowing you to go

Encouraging you to her

And wishing you blessings for your found love.

A Tear,

For feelings I could have expressed

Or words I could have spoken

For things I could have done.

A Tear,

For being only a friend

Your best friend for life.

A Tear,

For emotions that are about to burst.

For a heart full of love yearning for yours.

And still,more tears.

For things I can no longer change.

from my multiply...way back last 2yrs?..:)

i'm so thankful for all the blessings that i have now...i couldn't ask for more...:)

I've got great friends...family...and of course the Lord God..

im soo confuse? why do i feel this way?
i love him, but i want this to be over..
but if i do..i just hurt my self...
well I'm kinda used to the pain...
but why is that i always want to cry..
cry until my tears will dry...until it cries no more...

is it because i want to love my self back?
or is it because i just fall out of love...
loving him is something that i don't expect to happen..
i thought everything is perfect, until he find his Job..
and his busy with his job now, that even if mag "drama" pako dli ko nya tagdon...

siguro i have to do, what i need to do...
to be whole again...para if my husband will come I'm whole...and i love my self...

that is my goal...and i hope i can stand by it...

i want to call you but I'd rather not,
to you teach some lesson..
I want to hear your voice...
I want to know what happen to you..
I want to be updated with your life..
I want to be proud that my bf did a good job..
I want to be in your side...


I just simply want to be with you...


but i guess all this wants will not happen anymore because you are happy without me...
you can live without me...but the hardest part is I cant live without you..

your part of my routine,
your part of my daily life,
your the reason why i wake up each day and just be happy coz i know i have somebody..
somebody who loves me..

but i guess its just a dream...
i have to wake up in this fairy tale i made..

:(

this fairytale has to end...sad to say it doesn't end up in happily ever after.
it might be true to some but not true to all...

but I guess I'm not one of those lucky girl whose their story end up in happily ever after...
i need to accept that life is unfair..it is always will...and it has to be...


--lonelyhart--

there are times in our life that we have to let go of the things that we needed the most, and we loved the most...
maybe because, its for the best...and maybe its the right thing to do.
it might hurt us, but in the wrong run it might be the reason why we love ourselves so much....

God has all the explanation that we don't know...and i believe things happen for a reason...

I've never been this hurt..

i thought it was him i waited so for long to fix my broken hart

but he disappoint me, like everyone else...

I gave him everything just show him how much i love him

 I gave him my time, my love, my care, but he never treasure it..

for him i am just nothing..

Again, my heart is broken, he just broke it without telling me why?

it takes me five yrs. to forget my first love...

  dont tell me it would also take me five yrs to forget him?

  i dont think so, because i know deep inside i did my part..

i just hope and pray that i can forget him and let him go in a short span of time..

so that my time will not be waste for nothing..

-- lonelyhart--

Nag mahal ako.. sa murang edad ko noon natuto akong mag mahal ng dahil sayo..ni hindi ko nga alam kung anu ang mangyayari pero sumugal ako, minahal kita higit pa sasarili ko...pero anong ginawa mo?..sinaktan mulang ako...anu ba ang akala mu sa akin? hindi nasasaktan?oo..matapang ako pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun diba na hindi ako nasasaktan...

akala ko ikaw na..akala ko magiging masaya ako sa piling mo..akala ko hindi ako iiyak dahil alam kong mahal mo ako..pero hindi eh...pinaniwala mulang ako..pinaasa...sayang ibinigay ko pa naman lahat ng tiwala ko sayo..hindi mo yun inalagaan...pinabayaan mulang...pinag katiwalaan kita sa lahat ng bagay...pero wla rin pala yung kwenta...dahil hindi mu ito pinapahalagahan..

sana masaya ka ngayon sa piling nya..sana alagaan ka niya gaya ng ginawa ko..sana mahalin karin nya higit pa sa pag mamahal ko sayo...ang hiling ko lang, mahalin mo cya..wag mu cyang sasaktan gaya ng ginawa mu sa akin...dahil ang sakit..baka hindi nya makayanan...maawa ka naman sa mga babaeng pina paiyak mo...wag mu sana cyang itulad sa ibah...kasi alam ko mahal ka niya...

masyado ka nyang mahal para isugal ang pagkakaibigan namin...mahal ka nya dahil kahit alam nyang masasaktan ako...hindi nya pinigilan ang sarili nya...kahit ako yung kapalit..mas mahal ka pa nya kaysa sa akin, kaya sana lang alagaan mo sya...please..!!!!!oo, nasasaktan ako pero masasaan ba't makaka limutan din kita...oo, iiyak ako pero cguro naman karapatan ko yun diba...

sana nga lang maging madali para sa akin ang kalimutan kah..siguro naman ngayon meron na akong sapat na dahilan para kalimutan kah....mahal kah ng kaibigan ko at mahal mo cya..talo nga ako...wla na akong laban..!!!!!!!!!

batid ko ang kaligayahan nyong dalawa..sana maging masaya kayo....:]

"dance of life"

when we truly love someone we give our best and let that person see the pureness of our intention but sometimes, that person make us cry and hurt us for the wrong reason...

that someone must have loved us, but he has not loved us enough to make him stand for what he truly felt...

Now we are faced with a seemingly impossible task...of forgetting..

we have burdened ourselves long enough, but we still can't get out of this emotional trap...

let us remember that the more we try to forget someone we love, the more painful letting go will become...

sometimes we never have to take that person out of our hearts at all...for he will always be there...no matter how hard we try to drive him away...

it isn't his presence that makes this difficult...it is our stubbornness to accept our destiny..

that aligns forgetting next to impossible...we keep a cold face, but deep in our hearts...there's still that  lingering hope for a reconciliaaion...

somehow we still believe that we can rekindle small embers and relight that fire that once burned in our hearts...

these thought give us hope...but it also breeds the seeds of loneliness and despair...the only way to forget is to accept, and the only way to move on is to look ahead...and let the foot prints of the past be blown by the wind of time...

only then..can our hearts find a partner in a dance of life...

and hopefully never lost again...

my dream vacation

  

i always dream to go in pagudpud...marami na akong naririnig tungkol dito at gusto kung maka punta para malaman ko kung maganda ba talaga ang pagudpud..kasama ang pamilya at mga kaibigan...ang saya nun...

gusto ko mka kita ng white sand..yung wla masyadong tao...gusto ko tahimik ang lugar para mka pag munimuni...tapos madami ang pagkain puro masasarap...

pagkatapos nun gusto kung ma upo sa tabing dagat at pagmasdan ang pag lubog ng araw..hahaist wen pa kaya mangyayari yun...ang sarap mangarap...

at ang pinaka gusto ko sa lahat...ang maka punta sa isang flower farm...ewan ko bah..basta gustong gusto ko mka kita ng mga bulak-lak...sana may isang tao na mag dadala sa akin sa mga lugar na gusto ko...pag nangyari yun..ako na siguro ang pinaka masayng tao sa boung mundo...

You told me once …

It’s crazy to sacrifice and dedicate yourself

For someone...but you did that to me.

Thank you and sorry…

Sometimes, it’s hard to let go of someone you love, but you have to.

Yah its painful... but what can you do, when it really doesn’t work.??

Moving on will take a long time..

 

Cause I believe

In the law happiness can’t be destroyed

Your hands do not have to be held tightly by me..

Like the stars

There’s always a reason to smile

And I believe you need to be cherished

And for me to let go ....