my head rest on my pillow,
I let tears flow and ask myself...

why cant i let you go?

i know i have said goodbye so many times before..
but all roads lead me back to you.

but now, as i say this goodbye,
i have this feeling that i will never see you again.

honestly, i don't wanna cross your path in the future,
coz i don't want all these feeling to come back and hurt me once again...

i know i cant let go of my feelings,
but i have to let you go..

sorry if it took me this long
to let you go...

i still love you,
and i probably will love you for a very long time

but somehow i know,
i have to move on..and get over you..
And the only way for me to do that,
is to be not around you anymore......

like what they say, we cant forget someone we loved,
we may want to but we cant...

love cannot be forgotten, no matter how hard we try,
and how much we think it will ease the pain....
it will be there forever...

maybe fate will smile upon us, and will see each other again..
SOMEDAY...

A Tear,

For falling for you

For expecting too much

For thinking there was a chance

we would be more than just friends
.

A Tear,

For allowing you to go

Encouraging you to her

And wishing you blessings for your found love.

A Tear,

For feelings I could have expressed

Or words I could have spoken

For things I could have done.

A Tear,

For being only a friend

Your best friend for life.

A Tear,

For emotions that are about to burst.

For a heart full of love yearning for yours.

And still,more tears.

For things I can no longer change.

from my multiply...way back last 2yrs?..:)

i'm so thankful for all the blessings that i have now...i couldn't ask for more...:)

I've got great friends...family...and of course the Lord God..

im soo confuse? why do i feel this way?
i love him, but i want this to be over..
but if i do..i just hurt my self...
well I'm kinda used to the pain...
but why is that i always want to cry..
cry until my tears will dry...until it cries no more...

is it because i want to love my self back?
or is it because i just fall out of love...
loving him is something that i don't expect to happen..
i thought everything is perfect, until he find his Job..
and his busy with his job now, that even if mag "drama" pako dli ko nya tagdon...

siguro i have to do, what i need to do...
to be whole again...para if my husband will come I'm whole...and i love my self...

that is my goal...and i hope i can stand by it...

i want to call you but I'd rather not,
to you teach some lesson..
I want to hear your voice...
I want to know what happen to you..
I want to be updated with your life..
I want to be proud that my bf did a good job..
I want to be in your side...


I just simply want to be with you...


but i guess all this wants will not happen anymore because you are happy without me...
you can live without me...but the hardest part is I cant live without you..

your part of my routine,
your part of my daily life,
your the reason why i wake up each day and just be happy coz i know i have somebody..
somebody who loves me..

but i guess its just a dream...
i have to wake up in this fairy tale i made..

:(

this fairytale has to end...sad to say it doesn't end up in happily ever after.
it might be true to some but not true to all...

but I guess I'm not one of those lucky girl whose their story end up in happily ever after...
i need to accept that life is unfair..it is always will...and it has to be...


--lonelyhart--

there are times in our life that we have to let go of the things that we needed the most, and we loved the most...
maybe because, its for the best...and maybe its the right thing to do.
it might hurt us, but in the wrong run it might be the reason why we love ourselves so much....

God has all the explanation that we don't know...and i believe things happen for a reason...