i'm so thankful for all the blessings that i have now...i couldn't ask for more...:)

I've got great friends...family...and of course the Lord God..

im soo confuse? why do i feel this way?
i love him, but i want this to be over..
but if i do..i just hurt my self...
well I'm kinda used to the pain...
but why is that i always want to cry..
cry until my tears will dry...until it cries no more...

is it because i want to love my self back?
or is it because i just fall out of love...
loving him is something that i don't expect to happen..
i thought everything is perfect, until he find his Job..
and his busy with his job now, that even if mag "drama" pako dli ko nya tagdon...

siguro i have to do, what i need to do...
to be whole again...para if my husband will come I'm whole...and i love my self...

that is my goal...and i hope i can stand by it...

i want to call you but I'd rather not,
to you teach some lesson..
I want to hear your voice...
I want to know what happen to you..
I want to be updated with your life..
I want to be proud that my bf did a good job..
I want to be in your side...


I just simply want to be with you...


but i guess all this wants will not happen anymore because you are happy without me...
you can live without me...but the hardest part is I cant live without you..

your part of my routine,
your part of my daily life,
your the reason why i wake up each day and just be happy coz i know i have somebody..
somebody who loves me..

but i guess its just a dream...
i have to wake up in this fairy tale i made..

:(

this fairytale has to end...sad to say it doesn't end up in happily ever after.
it might be true to some but not true to all...

but I guess I'm not one of those lucky girl whose their story end up in happily ever after...
i need to accept that life is unfair..it is always will...and it has to be...


--lonelyhart--

there are times in our life that we have to let go of the things that we needed the most, and we loved the most...
maybe because, its for the best...and maybe its the right thing to do.
it might hurt us, but in the wrong run it might be the reason why we love ourselves so much....

God has all the explanation that we don't know...and i believe things happen for a reason...

I've never been this hurt..

i thought it was him i waited so for long to fix my broken hart

but he disappoint me, like everyone else...

I gave him everything just show him how much i love him

 I gave him my time, my love, my care, but he never treasure it..

for him i am just nothing..

Again, my heart is broken, he just broke it without telling me why?

it takes me five yrs. to forget my first love...

  dont tell me it would also take me five yrs to forget him?

  i dont think so, because i know deep inside i did my part..

i just hope and pray that i can forget him and let him go in a short span of time..

so that my time will not be waste for nothing..

-- lonelyhart--

Nag mahal ako.. sa murang edad ko noon natuto akong mag mahal ng dahil sayo..ni hindi ko nga alam kung anu ang mangyayari pero sumugal ako, minahal kita higit pa sasarili ko...pero anong ginawa mo?..sinaktan mulang ako...anu ba ang akala mu sa akin? hindi nasasaktan?oo..matapang ako pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun diba na hindi ako nasasaktan...

akala ko ikaw na..akala ko magiging masaya ako sa piling mo..akala ko hindi ako iiyak dahil alam kong mahal mo ako..pero hindi eh...pinaniwala mulang ako..pinaasa...sayang ibinigay ko pa naman lahat ng tiwala ko sayo..hindi mo yun inalagaan...pinabayaan mulang...pinag katiwalaan kita sa lahat ng bagay...pero wla rin pala yung kwenta...dahil hindi mu ito pinapahalagahan..

sana masaya ka ngayon sa piling nya..sana alagaan ka niya gaya ng ginawa ko..sana mahalin karin nya higit pa sa pag mamahal ko sayo...ang hiling ko lang, mahalin mo cya..wag mu cyang sasaktan gaya ng ginawa mu sa akin...dahil ang sakit..baka hindi nya makayanan...maawa ka naman sa mga babaeng pina paiyak mo...wag mu sana cyang itulad sa ibah...kasi alam ko mahal ka niya...

masyado ka nyang mahal para isugal ang pagkakaibigan namin...mahal ka nya dahil kahit alam nyang masasaktan ako...hindi nya pinigilan ang sarili nya...kahit ako yung kapalit..mas mahal ka pa nya kaysa sa akin, kaya sana lang alagaan mo sya...please..!!!!!oo, nasasaktan ako pero masasaan ba't makaka limutan din kita...oo, iiyak ako pero cguro naman karapatan ko yun diba...

sana nga lang maging madali para sa akin ang kalimutan kah..siguro naman ngayon meron na akong sapat na dahilan para kalimutan kah....mahal kah ng kaibigan ko at mahal mo cya..talo nga ako...wla na akong laban..!!!!!!!!!

batid ko ang kaligayahan nyong dalawa..sana maging masaya kayo....:]